A new poem

This is another new poem.

today
i have a sad
feeling
downhearted and discouraged
unloved
craving touch
skin hunger blooming
loneliness blossoms
i fall into myself
down dark deep
inside
drowning in myself

i have a sad
today.

© bardofupton 2019

Reading project, week ending 3 Nov 2019

What have I read this week? Just one, this time.

Mark of Fire (The Endarian Prophecy Book 1) by Richard Phillips

This is a fantasy novel about a young woman called Carol, a young man called Arm and an evil magic wielder called Kragan. I thought it was okay; the story and characters were quite interesting, but I probably won’t read any more in the series.

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Writing project, October 2019

This month’s word is dark, meaning “gloomy; cheerless; dismal” or “evil; iniquitous; wicked”.

This is going to be a short one, because I am kind of behind on writing it.

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It had been raining for weeks. Everything was damp, or wet, or flooded. The sky was a constant grey, making everything gloomy and dim. The perfect weather for a slow, creeping kind of evil. Nothing flashy, nothing too noticeable, just something that spread and spread like a cold, bringing misery to as many as possible. The conditions were ideal for a small, unimportant demon like Xel.

Almost too good, Xel thought to themself. Perhaps it’s a trick.

After all, they did have a number of enemies, despite their insignificance. Other demons were constantly clawing for any advantage. Or perhaps a senior demon was amusing themself by baiting a trap for a minor demon.

That’s not unheard of, thought Xel. I need to be cautious.

Besides, if a senior demon had set things up, they would get the credit, and Xel would have put in a great deal of work for nothing. It was probably better to wait.

Yes, Xel muttered. I’ll wait. Better to wait than to let someone else take credit for my work. Yes.

So, once again, Xel did nothing, for fear of doing the wrong thing or of someone else benefiting. They received neither blame nor praise and as a result, had risen high in the infernal hierarchy, an occurrence which had caused anger amongst those demons who did take action and work to spread darkness over the earth. Xel was aware of this hatred, but was unconcerned by it, as they now outranked all of them.

Although Xel’s fear of doing the wrong thing was an innate trait, they had begun to deliberately cultivate it once they realised how successful it was as a strategy. Xel had, in fact, managed to hack the system, something they were secretly smug about.

Pretty good for a minor imp, they thought to themself. My plan is working.

Xel gave a demonic laugh, breaking off suddenly as Pek, another demon, appeared in their doorway.

Lucifer wants to see you, Pek said.

Xel swallowed. That was never good news. They took a deep breath, stood up, and went to meet their fate.

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wolf (poem)

This is a new poem. It’s been quite a while since I wrote any poetry, so I’m happy to have something new to put up.

I’m feeling quite wolf today
wanting to tear and rend
and howl at the moon
my hands become paws
ripping away with sharpened claws
longer teeth and elongated jaws
I’d like to shred my problems
and scatter them to the winds
solve my issues with a snarl
and a flash of fang
because
today i’m feeling quite wolf

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Reading project, week ending 27 Oct 2019

What have I read this week?

Song of Edmon (The Fracture Worlds Book 1) by Adam Burch

This is a science fiction novel following a young man named Edmon. He is the son of a man who gained noble rank through winning the annual Combat, but Edmon is really only interested in becoming a musician. I quite enjoyed this, but feel no particular urge to read any more of the series.

A Little Hatred (The Age of Madness: Book 1) by Joe Abercrombie

This is a fantasy novel following various characters during a time of great upheaval in a kingdom that is rapidly industrialising. I enjoyed this: it’s dark and brutal, like pretty much everything else I’ve read by the author, but the characters and the world are really interesting and engaging. I definitely plan on reading the next book in the series.

A False Report: A True Story by T. Christian Miller and Ken Armstrong

This is a nonfiction book about a serial rapist. It was very interesting, and quite harrowing, particularly the parts about the woman who was pressured into withdrawing her rape allegation by the police.

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Reading project, week ending 20 Oct 2019

What have I read this week?

Toxic Parents: Overcoming Their Hurtful Legacy And Reclaiming Your Life by Susan Forward, Ph.D. with Craig Buck

This is a nonfiction self-help book about dealing with the problems caused by toxic parents. I found it very interesting and useful, although I think some of the writing is a little dated.

The Raven Tower by Ann Leckie

This is a fantasy novel about the kingdom of Iraden, which is protected by a god called the Raven. I really enjoyed this; it did not at all end up where I thought it was going to, and I really liked the characters and the world-building.

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Reading project, week ending 13 Oct 2019

What have I read this week?

Invisible Women: Exposing Data Bias In a World Designed for Men by Caroline Criado Perez

This is a nonfiction book about the gender data gap (i.e. the way in which data is collected mainly on men, and women are simply assumed to be the same) and how it affects women and society. I found this really interesting: I was aware of some of it already, but didn’t realise how bad it was. I would definitely read other books by this author.

Holy Sister by Mark Lawrence

This is the third (and I think final) book in the Book of the Ancestor series, which follows a young woman called Nona as she trains to be a martial nun. I enjoyed this: I like the world and Nona is a great character. I’d definitely read more by this author, or further books in the same world.

© bardofupton 2019