My favourite poems, part 4

This installment is about This Be The Verse by Philip Larkin (1922-1985).

I don’t remember when I came across this, possibly while I was at school. I do remember it being the first poem I’d come across with swearing in it!

They fuck you up, your mum and dad.
    They may not mean to, but they do. 

It definitely appealed to the cynical part of me.

Man hands on misery to man.
    It deepens like a coastal shelf.
Get out as early as you can,
    And don’t have any kids yourself.

At the time, it seemed to perfectly express something I was feeling, which I suppose is one reason that art, of any kind, speaks to you.

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Another poem about pain

I’m not entirely happy with this one, but I think it mostly conveys what I want to say:

fractured light
splintered diamond
light begets light
as pain begets pain
stabbing striking stinging
burning
flaring up and through
stealing breath
pulling me into my centre
where only agony exists
where time stretches
elongating my torment into subjective aeons
trapping me within myself

alone with pain is never alone
it accompanies me, inside but apart
the unwelcome guest, the unwanted gift you cannot refuse
it sits behind every breath, colours every thought
tempers every impulse with the fear
the fear of worsening of injury of damaging the parts that currently work
the fear of change, because stasis is safe
because if you can find the perfect position (you can’t)
then nothing will hurt (it will, it will, it always does)

pain makes me a coward
desperate to make it stop
willing to give up and give in
willing to shrink my self, my life
but
i cannot live so small (not for long)

there is more than pain
life is not just the indrawn breath but also the exhale

grit my teeth and keep walking
let the hope of painlessness recede
it’s not for me, not anymore
that road is for others
i walk on glass where they stroll on grass
but
nonetheless
i still walk
i still walk
i
still
walk

© bardofupton 2018

A new poem

Written about a week ago:

laughing
in the rain
water trickling down my skin
soaking my clothes
drenched in seconds

and I laugh
clothes sticking to my skin
spinning slowly
in the rain

alive
and happy

EDIT: I just realised I posted this twice. Sorry. I guess that’s what happens when I post things on my phone rather than using my computer.

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My favourite poems, part 3

[Series note (which I should probably have said in the previous post): I am in no way looking at these poems through a critical lens or even with much background knowledge about some of them. This is purely a look at why I like them and not any kind of real analysis.]

This one is about A Poison Tree by William Blake (1757-1827). I could probably write this whole series about Blake; he’s one of my favourite poets. But I’m restricting myself to one poem per poet, at least for the moment.

I definitely came across Blake as a teenager – the first of his poems I read was most likely The Tyger, and that encouraged me to read more of his work. But A Poison Tree is probably my favourite.

I like the repeating structure of the first verse:

I was angry with my friend;
I told my wrath, my wrath did end.
I was angry with my foe:
I told it not, my wrath did grow.

And the imagery of the second:

And I waterd it in fears,
Night & morning with my tears:
And I sunned it with smiles,
And with soft deceitful wiles.

I like the way it moves from abstract to concrete, the way it seems like a metaphorical tree in the first couple of verses, and then becomes a clearly real entity in the next two.

I just like Blake in general, and this poem in particular.

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A new poem

I’m not entirely sure what inspired this one:

words drop from your lips
like stones
like blows
and I flinch
words drip from your lips
like poison
like acid
wearing me away
words slide from your lips
like knives
like a scalpel
slicing me apart
words fall from your lips
like wind
like water
sliding off me
words spill from your lips
and I walk away

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My favourite poems, part 2

I kind of already started this series with my post about Not Waving but Drowning, so I am going to make it a recurring series where I discuss poems I like and why. It will be intermittent, however; I’m not committing to a regular schedule.

This installment is To His Coy Mistress by Andrew Marvell (1621-1678). This poem was written in the 1600s, and I first came across it during my English A-level way back when.

I like this poem basically because it amuses me. The very first lines grabbed me:

Had we but world enough and time,
This coyness, lady, were no crime.

It carries on in a similar vein, giving essentially a list of reasons why the “mistress” of the title should get it on with the person speaking in the poem. My favourite of these reasons is this:

The grave’s a fine and private place,
But none, I think, do there embrace.

There’s no deep reason why I like it; it’s just fun for me to read.

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Poem

This is another old poem:

Puppet Dancing

Vision 1

Little puppet on a string
Poor dancing weeping thing
Dance but do you want to?
Puppet master makes you

A puppet drops and lands
Free of controlling hands
Moving on his own now
Puppet can choose to bow

Puppet laughs smiles and dances
Giving us coy little glances
Puppet stops dead and screams
Freedom occurs in dreams

Little screaming mannikin
Regrets all that he’s been
What a fear filled little thing
Is a puppet on a string

Wooden toy dancing here
What is it that you fear?
Solemn face and dead eyes
Dying little lord of lies

Vision 2

A puppet cannot cry
No puppet you or I
Puppet is a little toy
Puppet can feel no joy

If a puppet’s string should break
Will that puppet then awake?
And when a puppet string is mended
A puppet’s freedom then is ended

Vision 3

Puppet dancing on a string
Poor little dancing weeping thing
Puppet dancing all alone
Magic life that’s all its own

Puppet dancing on a string
Poor helpless hopeless little thing
It knows it’s got a master
Its tears are falling faster.

© bardofupton 2018

was it you? (poem)

Another old poem:

was it you I spoke to last night?
after the sun was gone, vanished
into/over the horizon and the stars shone
twinkle twinkle through the dark
someone came through the surf towards
me as I lay whispering your name in the sand
someone touched me and held me, kissed me and stroked me
as I cried over/for you
someone comforted me there on the beach
murmuring sounds of warmth into my neck
giving me strength and solace
I clung, wept, whispered my fears, hopes, desires
someone talked me through the night
holding me down to that place/time
someone vanished before dawn, slipping
from my grasp, running with the waves in/to
the dark, leaving me to the sunrise
and melancholy birds and I need to know
who held me, caressed me with strong hands,
wiped away my tears, all that long long night and…
was it you I spoke to last night?

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Lecture (poem)

Another old poem:

you talk about tragedy in cold edged words
time erodes feeling and erases pain
quietly infusing history into agony
pacing silently up and down to talk of death
you remove the horror with spidersilk words
and remake the past with a theory
screams lie dead behind your voice
rustling paper covers torment
with dry cough
with dry words
and the soft voice’s murmur of disaster
silence stuns us as we sit
hear your voice unfolding violence
blood is bleached in black and white
but pain can still tear us
you talk about history with knife edged words
that slash and draw no blood
a judgement passed on
a lesson taught
about the voiceless dead
whose story you wrap in loaded words
a stone cast against the State.

© bardofupton 2018